By I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a long while, I don’t feel alone.
Element of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the incorrect reason; as an easy way to prevent my problems. acim teacher The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to generally share was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have allow you to see inside. Don’t want it troubling the mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not consider whatever I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere with its residents’reassurance, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief has been (has been?) released.
You will find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.